It was 21st July 2012. The day Azhar was buried at Anduki Perkuburan Islam. Tzu Min, Hadi, Hafidz, Arif, Khairuddin and Ibrahim was there. Hj Afiq and a few of his MPP friends too were there. His hostel room neighbours were there too.
You can see a lot of people reading Yassin to pray for him and pour Air Suci around him, hoping he will be purified. Everyone sent our best wishes. I, not knowing what exactly I should do, I just bowed 3 times as respect.
I tried to hold on my tears each time I think of him. When the flashes of moments come by, tears can hardly stay inside. "Be confident, you can do it." "Easy maaaa.." "Mana Tzu min?"etc etc. Each time frame in your head, hearing his sound saying, like a movie clip, it plays.
He isn't the most important person in my life, yet he once stepped into my life and left some colourful remarks. He were there as a great advisor, a great team mate and a great friend.
It was so heartache for me, it would be way too complicated to explain how sad his family would be, the red eyes I see from all his family members, trying to hold back all the tears, but hardly can, wiping them off and smiling welcoming Azhar's friends and relatives. The weakness you can feel behind all those tough smile.
Be strong. That is what Azhar want us to be. Be strong.
Azhar, you will be remembered as the handsome man in Askar uniform! :) Cheers. I will be strong. May Allah bless you.
Life isn't easy; life isn't fair. One thing it is great at -- how it makes us a better person each day :)
Sunday, July 22
Saturday, July 21
A letter to a great man, Azhar Sulong
Dear Azhar,
I don't know how sad it is to know this news. Looking at Razali's post on UBDPPC group telling us that you left us because of a helicopter accident, I wished what I see wasn't true, but when more and more of your friends typed "al-fatihah", my tears starting to flow like a river.
I really wished to know why.. why? Why and how did the helicopter crashed, and why you??? and I suddenly wished it wasn't you. Suddenly life feels so much shorter. I miss the moment I play around with you calling you "Azhahahahaha". and you replied "Siew Chien chien chien.." I laughed at how you try to tease me with Min and how you tell me he is a great shy man. You were always the humble man that taught us a lot and patiently tell me things that I don't know. Suddenly all these just run like a movie in the head, the moments we all had during ubdppc great times. You were always there for us.
I tried to google the news, I am too curious why this unfortune could happen on you, Azhar. and this is what I get. A news from years ago.
Azhar Sulong, a Universiti Brunei Darussalam (UBD) undergraduate, hopes that Brunei will always remain peaceful and tranquil under the leadership of His Majesty the Sultan and Yang Di-Pertuan of Brunei Darussalam.
Azhar, who is also a member of the university's residential college committee, said: "The theme, 'My Country, Brunei Darussalam' reflects our pride and love for the country. I am proud to be a Bruneian.
"In fact, one can say that the pride of being a Bruneian is the peace in the multiracial community that we observe in Brunei," he added.
Reading it, makes me feel even proud to know you in my life. I know you must be feeling very upset that I cried so bad now, right. I should be strong and move on. I am sure many others are falling tears for you.I just couldn't control... but I promise I will be alright after today.
Azhar, thanks for being in my life, no matter how insignificant I might have been for you. You will always be remembered as a great leader, a great team mate and a great friend. Forever will. May Allah bless you. You will be remembered and missed.
With loves,
Jane.
I don't know how sad it is to know this news. Looking at Razali's post on UBDPPC group telling us that you left us because of a helicopter accident, I wished what I see wasn't true, but when more and more of your friends typed "al-fatihah", my tears starting to flow like a river.
I really wished to know why.. why? Why and how did the helicopter crashed, and why you??? and I suddenly wished it wasn't you. Suddenly life feels so much shorter. I miss the moment I play around with you calling you "Azhahahahaha". and you replied "Siew Chien chien chien.." I laughed at how you try to tease me with Min and how you tell me he is a great shy man. You were always the humble man that taught us a lot and patiently tell me things that I don't know. Suddenly all these just run like a movie in the head, the moments we all had during ubdppc great times. You were always there for us.
I tried to google the news, I am too curious why this unfortune could happen on you, Azhar. and this is what I get. A news from years ago.
Azhar Sulong, a Universiti Brunei Darussalam (UBD) undergraduate, hopes that Brunei will always remain peaceful and tranquil under the leadership of His Majesty the Sultan and Yang Di-Pertuan of Brunei Darussalam.
Azhar, who is also a member of the university's residential college committee, said: "The theme, 'My Country, Brunei Darussalam' reflects our pride and love for the country. I am proud to be a Bruneian.
"In fact, one can say that the pride of being a Bruneian is the peace in the multiracial community that we observe in Brunei," he added.
Reading it, makes me feel even proud to know you in my life. I know you must be feeling very upset that I cried so bad now, right. I should be strong and move on. I am sure many others are falling tears for you.I just couldn't control... but I promise I will be alright after today.
Azhar, thanks for being in my life, no matter how insignificant I might have been for you. You will always be remembered as a great leader, a great team mate and a great friend. Forever will. May Allah bless you. You will be remembered and missed.
With loves,
Jane.
Wednesday, July 18
Discovery Year - Eye opener
As you know, I've completed my Chinese learning programme in Harbin Institute of Technology (HIT). It was a wonderful experience as expected by our university to open our eyes to the world. I wasn't alone, I went on this programme with Sieh Yee, the great company!!
WEATHERIt was a dream to see snow in real life, and I've realized it! SNOW! We arrived in Harbin on 23 February 2012, and it was just the right time there when it snowed for the first tim a few days later after a long cold winter. However we missed the Ice and Snow festival because the ice sculptures were starting to melt at that time.
I remembered 8 March, we played snow war and we slide down a slope, it was a thrill and great fun.
Its spring during April and you start to see green plants everywhere. Blossom blooms! =D In the beginning it was still cold but it is good enough to not wear your down jacket already.
Slowly june will be the early summer. You can wear shorts, and T-shirt by that time.
In short, winter is long in Harbin. No worries, they have heater in every building. and Summer in Harbin is rather short, it lasted only for 2 months or so. The weather wasn't as tough as we think,we adapt accordingly without much hassle.
STUDY LIFE
Study life was great! We just need to do what the teacher told us to, then we can move on to doing things we like.
I would say I wasn't really into learning chinese there, rather I would say I was there to enjoy the cultural exchange experience. The differences between Bruneian Chinese and those in China is quite large, I would say.
We have the same festival but the way we celebrate it is different. We refer to the same food in different words. The expressions we used is also different.
Example of food they eat during CNY,
The food we eat during Chinese New Year, for example. They don't eat Keropok with "Archa". Some part of them eat dumplings, and some eat "nian gao", and near to southern part, some eat "Mi Xian".
Example of speaking language,
"We" in northern chinese refers to "Za men" rather than "Wo men".
"What?" in northern chinese refers to "Sa?" rather than "Shen me?"
Example of how they celebrate a festival
One that I personally experienced is the Dumpling Festival. In Brunei, we bring those dumplings to the beach and throw them into the sea. They don't practice this here, maybe for the sake of not wasting food. They have this culture of wearing a bracelet and let the first rain that comes on the Dumpling Festival wet the bracelet, and you make a wish, cut the bracelet, and let it flow with the river. Interesting right?
Example of eating culture
As I believe you know, they use only chopsticks, without chinese spoon in very typical chinese restaurant. We found this difficult at first because I am so used to using spoon to eat but slowly get used to it.
EXPLORING CHINA
Sieh Yee and I had opportunities during semester holidays to have a short vacation elsewhere.
We went to Dalian and Shenyang at first, and before we come back, we visited Beijing, the capital city of China!
APPRECIATION TO HIT BUDDIES
First, I would proudly say that Sieh Yee made the 4 months more meaningful staying there. Making a lot of friends and learning new things is normal, but getting friends to be able to talk about anything just feels great. You don't need to worry, you just gotta let things off your heart, telling others. Most probably, we think so much alike. We laughed at our mistakes, we talk problems out and solve them, we feel afraid together, we do silly things together, and of course we got through the semester together!
Second, I have to thanks all my teachers and classmates for helping us so much with our lives there in Harbin. The teachers there are like friends, trying to help us improve our chinese. Besides, of course they are strict and they have rules to obey. HIT is famous for its strict rules and regulation that helps them to succeed. F2 buddies, in fact F level buddies, thanks for all the great moments!
Thirdly, Thanks to all chinese friends I met from "Chong Feng Ba" members, table tennis, calligraphy club and also dancing classes. Although we might not meet again, but friends, you will be remembered as the beautiful memories I have in Harbin Institute of Technology!
Thanks Ethan, for your passions in calligraphy, your effort in helping me out with the calligraphy work is so much appreciated, and I will remember you as a great leader, a great friend, a great dance partner who never gives up. Its my honour to meet you! :D
Thanks Uranus, for your cuteness and understanding. Maybe the way we work, the way we think, the way we act and the thoughts we have are so much alike, that I can somehow understand you without knowing you, and vice versa. I always love chatting with you and talk things out. Thanks for being a great friend!
Thanks Pan Jian, the great dancer. Our teacher always appoint him to run a demonstration, clearly shows he is experienced. Oh well, I love dancing, and he taught me a lot on this! and of course thanks for checking out on me during Beijing Trip. He was really like a great brother, worrying about his sister. It feels so heart warming!
Thanks Jia Hao, the great brother among friends. He always have that kind of feeling like a brother who will always be there when you need him! hehe! Thanks for offering your help in everything, and thanks to you, I could participate in the table tennis tournament. I am sorry I've disappointed you in some ways, perhaps you expect me to be better and maybe I could, but well, for all that, I appreciate everything. The confidence and endless hope you have in me, thank you!
Thanks Gan Lei for being so cute ! haha! We didn't spend too much time hanging out but he always have that kind of feelings that makes girl wanna tell him he's cute! *right, Sieh Yee?*
Thanks Senior Xu, for being the great table tennis sparring partner! :)
Thanks Davy (Dai Wei) for being the most fashionable person in the university. HIT is a top university, and it is not surprised to see people not prioritizing in their outlooks so much compared to other chinese universities. They were too busy with their studies to take care of their outlook but Davy is different! He caught korean's attention alot because he is fair and somehow looks korean too! He is a nice chatter too ;)
Thanks to F2 BUDDIES. Inna, Natsya, Serga, Chary, Suin, Mijin and Dajeong, we have great times together!! Sun island and all the gatherings. Thanks for being there for me like a family! <3 -----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Long story, and I can't summarise them properly!! :D haha! anyway, I enjoyed it very much. There are a lot of first times in it.
First time watching sunset with Suin and the other F1 class friends.
First time falling in love with Harbin Beer.
First time closing my eyes and feel the snow on my face.
First time playing snow war.
First time dance like nobody is around.
First time going into a russian bar and enjoy the free beer and wine.
First time writing so many postcards to friends all over the world.
First time away from family and serious assignments for so long.
First time putting down everything and just enjoy the moments without worries.
First time getting to know more international friends!
Coming back from China, I see things differently. a lot more relax, although still very stressed. a lot more open minded, although still not so open minded. *laugh*
Ahh, too many first times! and what a messy post! Too many things to tell and didn't want to post a long essay over here. =p
WEATHERIt was a dream to see snow in real life, and I've realized it! SNOW! We arrived in Harbin on 23 February 2012, and it was just the right time there when it snowed for the first tim a few days later after a long cold winter. However we missed the Ice and Snow festival because the ice sculptures were starting to melt at that time.
I remembered 8 March, we played snow war and we slide down a slope, it was a thrill and great fun.
Its spring during April and you start to see green plants everywhere. Blossom blooms! =D In the beginning it was still cold but it is good enough to not wear your down jacket already.
Slowly june will be the early summer. You can wear shorts, and T-shirt by that time.
In short, winter is long in Harbin. No worries, they have heater in every building. and Summer in Harbin is rather short, it lasted only for 2 months or so. The weather wasn't as tough as we think,we adapt accordingly without much hassle.
STUDY LIFE
Study life was great! We just need to do what the teacher told us to, then we can move on to doing things we like.
I would say I wasn't really into learning chinese there, rather I would say I was there to enjoy the cultural exchange experience. The differences between Bruneian Chinese and those in China is quite large, I would say.
We have the same festival but the way we celebrate it is different. We refer to the same food in different words. The expressions we used is also different.
Example of food they eat during CNY,
The food we eat during Chinese New Year, for example. They don't eat Keropok with "Archa". Some part of them eat dumplings, and some eat "nian gao", and near to southern part, some eat "Mi Xian".
Example of speaking language,
"We" in northern chinese refers to "Za men" rather than "Wo men".
"What?" in northern chinese refers to "Sa?" rather than "Shen me?"
Example of how they celebrate a festival
One that I personally experienced is the Dumpling Festival. In Brunei, we bring those dumplings to the beach and throw them into the sea. They don't practice this here, maybe for the sake of not wasting food. They have this culture of wearing a bracelet and let the first rain that comes on the Dumpling Festival wet the bracelet, and you make a wish, cut the bracelet, and let it flow with the river. Interesting right?
Example of eating culture
As I believe you know, they use only chopsticks, without chinese spoon in very typical chinese restaurant. We found this difficult at first because I am so used to using spoon to eat but slowly get used to it.
EXPLORING CHINA
Sieh Yee and I had opportunities during semester holidays to have a short vacation elsewhere.
We went to Dalian and Shenyang at first, and before we come back, we visited Beijing, the capital city of China!
APPRECIATION TO HIT BUDDIES
First, I would proudly say that Sieh Yee made the 4 months more meaningful staying there. Making a lot of friends and learning new things is normal, but getting friends to be able to talk about anything just feels great. You don't need to worry, you just gotta let things off your heart, telling others. Most probably, we think so much alike. We laughed at our mistakes, we talk problems out and solve them, we feel afraid together, we do silly things together, and of course we got through the semester together!
Second, I have to thanks all my teachers and classmates for helping us so much with our lives there in Harbin. The teachers there are like friends, trying to help us improve our chinese. Besides, of course they are strict and they have rules to obey. HIT is famous for its strict rules and regulation that helps them to succeed. F2 buddies, in fact F level buddies, thanks for all the great moments!
Thirdly, Thanks to all chinese friends I met from "Chong Feng Ba" members, table tennis, calligraphy club and also dancing classes. Although we might not meet again, but friends, you will be remembered as the beautiful memories I have in Harbin Institute of Technology!
Thanks Ethan, for your passions in calligraphy, your effort in helping me out with the calligraphy work is so much appreciated, and I will remember you as a great leader, a great friend, a great dance partner who never gives up. Its my honour to meet you! :D
Thanks Uranus, for your cuteness and understanding. Maybe the way we work, the way we think, the way we act and the thoughts we have are so much alike, that I can somehow understand you without knowing you, and vice versa. I always love chatting with you and talk things out. Thanks for being a great friend!
Thanks Pan Jian, the great dancer. Our teacher always appoint him to run a demonstration, clearly shows he is experienced. Oh well, I love dancing, and he taught me a lot on this! and of course thanks for checking out on me during Beijing Trip. He was really like a great brother, worrying about his sister. It feels so heart warming!
Thanks Jia Hao, the great brother among friends. He always have that kind of feeling like a brother who will always be there when you need him! hehe! Thanks for offering your help in everything, and thanks to you, I could participate in the table tennis tournament. I am sorry I've disappointed you in some ways, perhaps you expect me to be better and maybe I could, but well, for all that, I appreciate everything. The confidence and endless hope you have in me, thank you!
Thanks Gan Lei for being so cute ! haha! We didn't spend too much time hanging out but he always have that kind of feelings that makes girl wanna tell him he's cute! *right, Sieh Yee?*
Thanks Senior Xu, for being the great table tennis sparring partner! :)
Thanks Davy (Dai Wei) for being the most fashionable person in the university. HIT is a top university, and it is not surprised to see people not prioritizing in their outlooks so much compared to other chinese universities. They were too busy with their studies to take care of their outlook but Davy is different! He caught korean's attention alot because he is fair and somehow looks korean too! He is a nice chatter too ;)
Thanks to F2 BUDDIES. Inna, Natsya, Serga, Chary, Suin, Mijin and Dajeong, we have great times together!! Sun island and all the gatherings. Thanks for being there for me like a family! <3 -----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Long story, and I can't summarise them properly!! :D haha! anyway, I enjoyed it very much. There are a lot of first times in it.
First time watching sunset with Suin and the other F1 class friends.
First time falling in love with Harbin Beer.
First time closing my eyes and feel the snow on my face.
First time playing snow war.
First time dance like nobody is around.
First time going into a russian bar and enjoy the free beer and wine.
First time writing so many postcards to friends all over the world.
First time away from family and serious assignments for so long.
First time putting down everything and just enjoy the moments without worries.
First time getting to know more international friends!
Coming back from China, I see things differently. a lot more relax, although still very stressed. a lot more open minded, although still not so open minded. *laugh*
Ahh, too many first times! and what a messy post! Too many things to tell and didn't want to post a long essay over here. =p
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