New year 2013!

Oh well, I've left this blog abandoned for ages, as always. I feel like writing a lot only either I feel extremely emotional or just plain bored. Most of the time in the past, what i do is, New Post > Write alot > Think its too personal or emotional to get published> backspace everything> felt better > phew> ok!

In the end what I wrote wasn't being published, thus an abandoned blog website. Haha. Writing this blog, is like talking to someone (someone I don't even know who, unless you commented!! haha)

Its new year 2013, guess what, and also the final semester in UBD (hopefully!). It is also the time getting headache about whether to study master or not and whether to apply scholarship or not as all these stuffs are getting pretty mental draining to think of.

Plus I did some calculations on the money, with the savings I have right now, going UK is pretty much a draining option even I got the scholarship if I didn't want to burden my dad. The rent especially, and the living expense is quite expensive. Either I am very very very broke when I come back, or I am very very very dependant on my dad to give me monthly allowances for the last few months there. which means, my bank account is going to go negative, government allowances may help lessen a little but doesn't cover all expense. Gone is my emergency fund, and so I am back to think "Is it worth studying master and put more expense to the family?" Yes, if I get a master salary range job as soon as I got back! NO, if salary range doesn't differ much from what a bachelor graduate get. Huhu! So I am putting some nearby countries into consideration, like Singapore.

I planned a korea trip myself earlier last year, and its going to be May 13- May 21 in korea. Sounds great, and yes, it means more pocket money out of bank account. It may have been a selfish decision in the past, and second thought I think I deserved this trip for getting through these 4 years! I didn't ask for any rewards for scoring As, so I guess a getaway isn't that bad also.

I am 22 years, coming 23 years old. Times flies, isn't it? What am I going to see myself in 5 years time, I always ask myself.

My dream is simply, having a simple happy family in a simple house, having a simple life, get to travel once every year to see the world, and a great retirement plan to travel more more!

If I want a great life, it should means, I MUST start realizing it by saving money now! :) Weeee~~ :)

Writing craze

Writing always makes me feel better, that's the main purpose of my blog, to release emotions and thoughts!

I love going to beach if I face any tough problems I can't hold a breathe with. but now I realize that is not practical, it can make me relax but in the end I still have to face the problem and solve it. That was a long ago since my last visit to Jerudong beach, I remembered it was raining heavily and I was feeling pretty damn sad.

Today I felt the same, not only screw up my test, well, it is suppose to be easy if I didn't panic for awhile, I just didn't managed to finish it. What a mess. Still not the end of the world, I am still here, living my life.

I feel kinda off normality these days, I feel abnormal at times. Mood swings, crazy temper, not that I myself can hold it nicely. I just let off very easily. Thanks to the patient maths gang, I wonder how they can tolerate all my craziness sometimes *smiles widely*.

After knowing the answer to a question you thought so hard, it was that easy that you might even want to smack your head to not know it before that. After working so hard, and getting to know your classmates just googled it and finish it within a few minutes just makes you feel like pulling your hairs off. HAHA!. How idiotic but I believe, and I still do believe hardwork will be paid off one day when I hold my graduating certificate with a first class honour (in my dreams, but it might come true, who knows!) HEHE!

These days, I live my own life, without expecting anyone or anything to come by. I do things I like, I refuse to things I don't want to. It feels pretty damn good. YES. It feels pretty that good, also bad because I might look aloof at times, and scary the next. HAHA. I am in the middle of building myself back. After feeling so tired from everything I do, I need this. Some freedom and space I need, not listening to anyone, just do things like a boss.
(WOAH, it feels so good that I kinda loving it now.)

Out of sight means out of mind. I always forget things until I see it, and things that reminds me of it. but otherwise, I can just forget about it without guilty, bleh. I forget a lot of things including I have a 8am class the next day so I slept late, and I was still having dizzy head on the bed cannot managed to wake up! Thanks to the wet hair the night before, I have some headache too, so yea I skipped class. What an "accomplishment"?

I am a random person. Reading from the top, you would realize this is not an organized blog post, I typed as I thought. Huu... so the topics are suddenly here and there. Its a releasing moments, I am not suppose to try hard in arranging it anyways. HEHEHE.

So I've done computer graphics assignment lab 7, lab 8 yet to be done :'(, so much to do. and I feel like watching running man. AHAHA. what.. and yesss, later we'll be having sister night. pretty late, around 10pm+, or 11+pm. Everyone is in "Assignment mode" and prefers to enjoy after hardwork! *thumbs up!* <3 br="br">
AND I just get back my mini test paper, WOAH 20/20, my heart melted, not so soon later I was having my modelling test and my heart broke. LOL! Thinking back, it was all nonsense :(

I wish Baby is here, telling me its going to be easy. Things are GOING TO BE OKAY. WOAH!

SKBD Table Tennis 10-13th Sept 2012

IPT Table Tennis Team!

We've earned 1 set of medals, 1 gold, 1 silver, 1 bronze for IPT. I am very proud of myself in a sense that I get to breathe through the hotness and some headache for this! =) and of course thanks to all team mates and supporters, without you, who would we be?

I was completely satisfied with my first day, and 2nd/3rd day was very awful because I can feel the whole body isn't just as complete as it was. Fever or lack of sleep? I am not quite sure. My mind flew away and I had hard time focusing. Nevertheless, it was all good games. At least, this is the first time I have all 3 different medals, gold silver bronze! Optimistically although I break the record of the trend I keep getting 2 gold 1 silver for the past few years, but well this could the best so far, the fighting spirit, the team work within IPT is much more than I ever wanted!

As a whole, everyone is fighting for the best! I can see their burning spirit, hardwork paid off, not just for the medals but the spirit you have for this event and the best performance you gave! :) Give your best, give your best!!

It is nice to know Brunei Table Tennis is improving now, may not be up to competitive level with the outside, but deep within, we can see we are going up. :) New faces and new courageous beginners, hope to see them getting better and competitive! =D

Special thanks to all IPT team mates, and not to forget my dearest Min who were there all along, pushing me to my best! and of course Tiffany who purposely come to watch my double finals, feels like angel from the sky! Thanks for being there, people, it meant a lot more than a lot to me :)

Congratulation to Temburong and KB for being tops in the matches! :D hehe! Love you all! ;)